Growing up we got our first dog when I was just a little boy, a poodle mix that we called magic. I loved that dog to death, had it for a few years and then our landlords made us get rid of it. I was probably only around 5 years old, and was heartbroken that we had to get rid of it.
Fast forward till I was about 13 or so, and our neighbors got this peikeneges dog. A blond little thing, that was cuter then holy heck and my mother had to have one. So after talking to our neighbors for a month or so, we wound up going to the same breeder and got a pup from the same parents but the next litter. A mostly black peik with a white chest and white tips on her paws. We had her for a year or two and then we decided to offer to buy the blonde peik from the neighbors because they really weren't taking care of the poor thing. We would find it tied up outside in the middle of the winter, with it's face and paws frozen to the ground. So we rescued him and then from that point those two pups were like brothers and sisters in our family.
We loved them so much, they were basically treated like children. My father had a huge attachement to the female black pup and everyone just loved both dogs so much.
Just over 3 years ago now we had to put down the female, she had an auto immune disorder and her immune system crashed. We tried something to help her recover, but it didn't work and gave us just one more precious month with her. She was around 12 years old, the male is just about 15 or so. He is however rapidly declining. He has a lot of back and joint issues, has a very tough time getting around, seems to be losing his hearing and doesn't really move around all that much. We give him supplements that help with his joint and back health, but I fear soon we may be putting him down.
It can be so hard, it was so hard to put our dog down. But I guess the best thing to do is just remember all of the good times and how great things were when you two were together. You may not ever want another dog, it may be hard to even think about it or even feel the same way. That happens, but you never know.